Usually I'm one darn unlucky person. Not that I have a bad luck all the time, it's just there's no luck at all. But finally my persistence worked.
For freakin' 11 years I've waited for Marilyn Manson to come to my country. Yes, I could have seen him before but I'm not much for a traveler. So finally he'll be here on November 15, and although I'm no longer the biggest fan of his as I was when I was a teen, it still makes me go all *squeeee*

Ok, the luck thing is that I finally won 2 tickets in the fan zone. YAY! I can't believe I actually got something for almost nothing. The only problem is that I have already bought the ticket.



Anyway, that up there was just a stupid intro because I never tell anything about myself here (not that someone cares lol), but here goes the main part...
I promised lot of my friends the features in my journal but I had no time, and I actually have no time now either, but friends are friends. And now I've forgotten who I promised the features to. So, I'll try feature the most of you in the next months. Promise.

Kitties... I adore kitties...
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Paintings and drawings...
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and little bjd people...
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(update it another day )

I wanted to write something, but I forgot what was that. Lately my mind is so full with thoughts that I forget even my name and age.

OK, I know it's a bit too late, but I wanted to say BIG THANKS to for drawing my OC Tera, and doing an awesome job on it.


So I figured that could be my featured artist. Her works are fantastic and her drawing style's original. I've never been good at traditional arts, so I admire her deeply. Besides she's an amazing person, so check her out.

here's some of my favorites:

I'll be gone for a week or more, so I won't be able to reply to your messages and comments. Don't think I don't love you anymore, because I do, I appreciate your support and friendship, my friends.

I'm going for a camping/hiking trip. Into the Wild. lol If insects don't kill me, jelly fish don't burn my skin off and the sea doesn't wash me away while I'm swimming drunk, then I'll be back and spamming again.



and my favorite song that surely will follow me in my head (for I won't take music with me, I will definitely die because of lack of music) - Skumju Akmeņi "Man pieder ceļš". (I didn't translate it fully correct, more like an improvisation I usually do.)

man pieder ceļš
ko ziedi klāj un ceriņi
un miruši guļ taureņi
pie mana slēgtā loga
un bezgalīgās debesīs
baudījuši brīvi
daudzkrāsainie putni
pie manām kājām krīt

man pieder ceļš
caur pamestu parku
tur dzīvo eņģeļi
kas klusumu kas klusumu sargā
un ja mēs tuvāk ejam
tad sadzirdēt var
kā klusas melodijas
tie dzied, tie dzied aiz vientulības

es paceļu no zemes
aklo taureni
un mācos saprast sevī
nebūtību nolemtību

es klausos aklā vīrā
līdz nedzirdu neko
un mācos saprast sevī nebūtību nolemtību

the road belongs to me
the one covered by flowers and lilacs
and the butterflies lie dead
next to my shut closed window
and in the endless skies
the colorful birds once enjoyed the freedom flights
now they fall down next to my feet

the road belongs to me
the one through the abandoned parks
the angels dwell there
the ones that guard the silent light
and if we come a little closer
we can hear the silent melodies
they sing because of loneliness

I lift up from the ground
the blind butterfly
and try to understand inside me
the nothingness
the fatality

I listen to the blind man
until I can hear nothing anymore
and I try to understand inside me
the nothingness
the fatality

Death is a strange thing, and I actually don't believe in it. Whenever someone dies, it feels like they've gone to some far away trip, and I don't miss them. I thought this time it will be different because I really love my godson Yeshka, but... I'm so unnaturally un-egocentric when it comes to Death - I don't want my beloved ones to stay with me. That's funny, right?
I hope he's in better place, chasing butterflies.




OK, I got carried away with thumbnails

I was just listening to Miyavi, and then I was like - hey, wait, I've got BD today lol I forgot about it just because almost no one wished me Happy BD. Not that I ever celebrate it...

Funny, this is the first sunless BD in my entire life.



And look what I got as a birthday gift
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Thanks to and for poems!